Life Happened

I just let it dawn on me that I have nine days until school starts again. I've been on "leisure" since school let out. That's what I keep calling it. It bugs Mike and that makes me very happy. So before I go back, I'll have one whole entire week to myself. In that time I'll certainly catch up on laundry. I will steam clean the carpet AGAIN. I will buy new curtains for the dining room and kitchen with a gift card (and hang them). I'll figure out what in the world I'm supposed to do with all of the toys the girls got for Christmas (I DID clean out rooms and throw away/donate everything I could). I will rid my bakers rack of clutter. I hate that thing and wish I didn't need one. Woe is me. I will go pick up my textbooks from school so I can actually read something. Is it weird to miss reading textbooks? Mike asked me if I wanted to read one of his books while I was on "leisure". I looked at him like he was crazy. First of all, I'm on leisure. Second of all, if I'm reading, I'm reading purely for knowledge. I can't even fathom filling my brain full of pleasure at this moment. I wish I could. I just can't. It would feel....wrong. I will upload and burn all 23423423 photos and videos from all cameras. That's such a chore but it must be done. I will attempt to clean out my closet. It's a disgrace, to say the least. I may not get to that simply because I can't bare to look at it. It makes me cringe to open the door. I just have so much STUFF. None of it fits anymore and yet, I can't bare to go through it all and get rid of it. I wish my body would figure out what weight it wants to be so I could be done with half of it already. :-)
I will attempt to do this all if I can keep myself from sleeping until 11 everyday. That's going to be really, really difficult. Because sleep just sounds so wonderful most days.

Labels: college redux, crazy, life, me

I wanted to take down the tree today but no one would let me. I'm happy that Christmas has come and gone. I know Christmas is not supposed to be about presents and money, but it really is. Especially when you have two kids who want the world. They're good kids and I try not to spoil them. They get enough of that from my parents. I don't buy them everything they ask for during the year. And because they are such good children I want to make their Christmas special. I tend to go overboard because it IS the one time of the year I buy them what they want and not just what they need. It's so easy to go overboard but things would be just a little more fun for me if I had an unlimited budget. I hate money and I hate credit cards. I wish I could just whittle some trains out of wood and paint them with dye from the vegetables in our garden and be done with it. I keep telling myself it's only ONCE a year. It just seems like such a chore. I asked Sydni and Davis to donate all of their gently used toys to a local church and then asked them to pick out one or two new items to give away as well. The first year nursing students were asked to put together a party for the local chapter of the Boys and Girls club. We were also asked to put together a little something for a local homeless shelter. I picked those two causes for the girls new presents. We went through closets as well and gave away tons of clothes that still had tags on them. It felt good and the girls were actually very receptive to the idea that they were helping other children. All I had to say was, "How would you feel if you knew you weren't going to receive any presents this year?" "They wake up on Christmas and don't have anything?" "Honey, they don't even have a place to live." "Ohhhhh. Well then they need our help!"
That's the part of Christmas that felt good this year. My kids were very happy with all they received and I loved seeing the joy on their little faces. But I'd rather hold on to the part where they really got it.

Labels: double trouble, family time, holidays, lalalove, life

• 22:42 Low cholesterol diets suck bfa. I'm just sayin'.
• 12:05 at mom and dads laying in lazy boy annd feeling very lazy. snore.
• 21:11 I feel much more holidayish now that our tree is in the house and decorated. Even played christmas music and sang loudly while decorating.

• 22:27 Received xmas card from someone I havent talked to in about 3 years. Back to maiden name in photo only with a dog. Weird.
• 22:28 BTW - for those in the know....I have NOT sent out xmas cards of my own. Don't think I just forgot about you and get all bitter.
• 12:04 Am waiting for the children to get home from 1/2 day to decorate the tree. Have done nothing this morning but watch t.v. and sleep.
• 13:14 Why must my dog grab a mouth full of food, walk into the carpeted living room, spit it all out and then eat them one by one. Stupid!